My Lala Land,

since the last day i posted and it's so neglected here i see so many dusts covering my older posts .
Poor squibies are deleted too ;( it's about time i replace them .

whtvr anyway i thought i should rant about something today .
Copied straight from my LJ . -yeah love me for making my way out of here ;p
ADD MEY ? 8D asdfghjkl bless you .

Kay so, a cyber friend of mine has been acting really weird lately .
The first time we met, i thought she'd make a really good friend because we click together. We spent most of our time chatting with each other, and i really like her style . I see her as a big inspiration, she sees me as someone to take care of .

Months had passed now, and almost all of her impressions in me are fading .

She found new friends through me, since my other friends are seeing her comments in my comment box like almost all of the time they visit my page, and they started to talk to each other . She became happy, which makes me happy too, but soon after i began to feel really irritated .
She began to boast about her friends; making video dedications, vent videos that attract attentions, posts bulletins and messages that say 'i love my new friends', 'my friends are sexy' and all that shizznit . Sure she must be really happy knowing that she just got herself new friends . Or maybe even new, cooler friends . But does that really mean you can now dump everyone that's on your old friend list ?
One time i striked up a conversation with her again through comments, and through that i began to realize that she had changed .
The way she talks, the way she say about things ; everything, that i almost posted a comment in her page asking if this is really her or somebody else is on charge of her account . And this 'new her' is really disgusting the crap out of me .

She began to say bad things to me, she began to disagree with alot of things i do, she began to troll me around and criticize whatever i do .
Yeah i can still stand it if she disagrees with me alot since maybe she doesn't like my style and by her criticizing me perhaps that's just the way she shows that she cares about me and she wants me to be better at things . I can still accept all those, but as i let it that way, her comments start to form into something like a spear that stabs me inside repeatedly from time to time, and i couldn't stand it anymore i'd rather slash my chest and grab my heart out to show her how damaged it was right now because of that freaking weapon .

I double checked myself if i ever did something wrong to her or hurt her in some way, but i couldn't find any.
I never did bad things to her. Whenever she says something, i always agree to her . I follow her sayings, i listened to her vents through PMs and i replied as long-ass as i could just in hope that it could somehow relieve her from her fall and see her smiling again . But she didn't even reply that PM for weeks . I waited long enough until she sent me a PM saying that she swears she'll reply my PM asap, only to find out that she never did after that, and she never will .

She talks more to her /cooler/ friends than me .
Feels like dumped right through the sewer . And i just can't seem to stress this out enough .

I mean seriously, did i do something to hurt you ?
I'm not that bad of a person; i wouldn't throw you out of the bus just because you eat my portion of supper or throw your ass to sharks . I might do that now if i want to, but i'm not that treetrunking cruel . If you really dislike me that much because of a particular something of me that i don't know, then just damn say it right in front of my face; stop trolling me, your acts are all hurting me and i don't like it; EVEN A BIT ! >:(






...*rolls on the floor*



Moments after i began to dispose herself out of my life, she continues making short, stupid vent vids and dedication vids to her cooler friends which spams through my subscriptions list all the way down the page . Such attention seeker is honestly irritating me .
She kept editing her profile to which people will keep seeking her page and posts sick bulletins and shitty announcements that attract people to come, respond, and sympathize to her even more .
-Sorry to say such things, but this disappointment of mine has turned into something much more like a hatred . So is why the rude words . Call me a bitch .

She then removes my name from her featured friend and replace it with her new friends . Saying that as if i haven't been a good friend of her and everyone that has been removed from her featured friend box never really attempts to talk to her again .
If i have the urge to ask, i'd ask the latter right away 'who's the one that never really attempts to talk again now' ?

Seriously, her acts are pissing me off .
If it wasn't because of her, i won't even bother to write all these crap and just go ride my happy wagon to neverland instead of spamming my LJs with useless vents .

Yeah i might be overreacting right now or something - whatever negative things you say or think about me just now might be a fact, but if you see the real condition of this, i hope you'll understand .


I never want to talk to her again .
Tolerating her ignorance will only make me feel stupid . It's irony to even know i chanced to admire her before .



For you people out there, i hope you don't have the similar experience as mine cuz it's saddening, really .
And for you cute stalkers who just read this long post of mine,
what is wrong with you ? lol .

-xoxo .